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Someone said this.

"... Doubt takes many forms. One is fear that you’ll hurt yourself by going forward. Another form of doubt is feeling that you’ve misunderstood your life and that you’re constantly making a fundamental mistake."

Someone knows my bro and I.... though not quite, coz I don't understand my life enough yet to doubt it might be a misunderstanding. I'm just working on the mistake part. Maybe one day when I am wiser, I'd know. ("Damn it, I thought I wanted to an engineer, turns out I'm supposed to be a belly dancer instead. I see it now. " )

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