Sometimes I feel like I wanted to punch something. It's alright if it's frustrating, I can handle that. What I can't handle is that I seem to be the only one being frustrated, and it made me feel crazy. Am I over-reacting? Why do I get reactions from some that implied I am expecting too much? I don't know, to me it's a simple but fundamental question to understanding anything - why? Does it not deserve an answer?

Doctors are not god. They know more about diseases like a car mechanic knows more about car. There are good and bad mechanics. If you bring your car to a mechanic, he told you he fixed it but he can't explain how, would you actually be ok with that, pay him and walk away hoping the car will work? No way in hell, you would demand an explanation. Sure, we don't know everything about the human body yet, so doctors get more leeway, but that doesn't mean they don't need to try. If anything they should try harder because while you can replace a car, you can't replace a life.

So I don't understand why some would say "Oh, but what do you expect?" Well, I expect more. The more trust patients have on you, the more you have to be careful. It's call ethics. It's mandatory when you are a doctor, it's not an option. It's not OK to make up excuses for them. Damn it, you shouldn't have to be his son or the prime minister to get health care, and by health care I don't mean dispensing drugs. Anyone can do that, drug dealers do that without care. I mean health care. Don't tell me it's OK that we don't deserve that.